7am..up and awake.
It's pretty normal to be awake at 7am I suppose.. but considering the fact that I just flew in the night before yesterday, I feel pretty good about the possibility to overcome jet lags quicker than usual. wake up time for yesterday was 3 am, today was 5am. push for 3 more hours then I'll be good. I don't like the feeling of waking up in the middle of night and not being able to fall back asleep.. please let this morning be the end of that.
I can't believe the last time I wrote in here was back in summer.. when I was here in the states. I originally created this blog with the intention of logging the bits & pieces of my life in east asia. but..that obviously didn't happen. life was going on at full speed, or perhaps it was me that was going full speed at life. I've been called workaholic, seen and experienced some pretty intense spiritual warfare, and had herniated disc in my back- all for the first time in my life. I've been made aware of the need to pause and rest, towards the end of the year at least..when the need became more apparent. Which is why I'm reminding myself to be thankful to have this break at home. To be honest, I don't know what to even expect of my month-long stay here.. but what I do know, I want peace. I want restoration in areas of my life that need exposure to His supernatural presence ..of healing, embrace and of love.
Although a part of my conscious has been constantly poking at me to have every minute of my time here planned out, a greater part of me wants to delay doing that and enjoy the nothingness. And be still, knowing that He is good. knowing that even when I don't do anything, I am still loved. perfectly loved. There is an incredible peace in being assured of that.
Jesus, come and walk me through this time, have me rest in your peace.
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