Monday, August 30, 2010

longing

last night i dreamt that.. i was back in bj, with our friends, worshiping & praising the Lord in Chinese, listening to friends share their passionate hearts for Christ in Chinese..

today i was looking at pictures of friends that moved into our apartments, their meals in familiar places in bj and as i kept on looking.. i couldn't stop crying. i miss it so much already, and im not even back in the states yet. i had left a part of my heart in the city.. and this must be a heartache--longing for the part of me that's left there.

but i know He is sovereign. i know He is good. i know You are good, i know You are leading me, i know You plans for me are perfect and Your timing is perfect. Your love for me runs over the mountains and the sea..

i shall trust and wait upon You. take this fragile heart and make it more like Yours

Sunday, August 22, 2010

psalm 37_ the virtue of trusting, waiting, and 義。

Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away.

Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.

Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret-- it leads only to evil. For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land. A little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look for them, they will not be found.

But the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace.

The wicked plot against the righteous and gnash their teeth at them; but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for he knows their day is coming. The wicked draw the sword and bend the bow to bring down the poor and needy, to slay those whose ways are upright. But their swords will pierce their own hearts, and their bows will be broken. Better the little that the righteous have than the wealth of many wicked; for the power of the wicked will be broken, but the LORD upholds the righteous. The days of the blameless are known to the LORD, and their inheritance will endure forever. In times of disaster they will not wither; in days of famine they will enjoy plenty. But the wicked will perish: The LORD's enemies will be like the beauty of the fields, they will vanish-- vanish like smoke. The wicked borrow and do not repay, bu the righteous give generously; those the LORD blesses will inherit the land, but those he curses will be cut off.

If the LORD delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm;
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread. They are always generous and lend freely; their children will be blessed.

Turn from evil and do good;
then you will dwell in the land forever.

For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. They will be protected forever, but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off; the righteous will inherit the land and dwell in it forever.

The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom, and his tongue speaks what is just.
The law of his God is in his heart; his feet do not slip.

The wicked lie in wait for the righteous, seeking their very lives; or let them be condemned when brought to trial.

Wait for the LORD
and keep his way.
He will exalt you to inherit the land;
when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.

I have seen a wicked and ruthless man flourishing like a green tree in its native soil, but he soon passed away and was no more; though I looked for him, he could not be found. Consider the blameless, observe the upright; there is a future for the man of peace. But all the sinners will be destroyed; the future of the wicked will be cut off.

The salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD;
he is their stronghold in time of trouble.

The LORD helps them and delivers them; he delivers them from the wicked and saves them, because they take refuge in him.

Friday, August 20, 2010

totally




sinking in Your grace.. in Your limitless, endless love.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

You are my good shepherd

My sheep listen to my voice;
I know them and they follow me.

yes Lord.. you won't even allow the slightest doubt in my heart-- it is Your voice I'm following and trusting in. from the very beginning, it's been You.. coming to EA- staying another year- things with.. - calling to come back - japan -.. and what's been happening even up to now... You are, have been in complete control of all things and will continue to be. You've spoken so much; timing, taking a risk, trust.. on repeat over and over again. Trusting without wavering. Waiting for Your timing.

Wait for the Lord. Be strong & take heart.. and wait for the Lord.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

timing.
Your timing.

Monday, August 9, 2010

그렇다고 하시면 그런거고
아니다 하시면 아닌거다

기다리라고 하시면
기다리는거구.

마음의 평안.. 오직 주안에서 찾으리

i will not waver, i will not waver, i will not waver.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

my heart

is so overwhelmed.

day by day--God You've been reminding me, that I'm not crazy.. for falling in love with this place, with your vision for this place, and with simply your powerful presence at work here. I'm only one of many that you've called. one of many that you've touched. It is real, You are moving-- You've been moving.. back towards Jerusalem. You are doing it, lives are changing, light is being brought into darkness, visions are being fulfilled. You are pouring out Your spirit & torches of revival are being lit.. sons & daughters are prophesying, old men dreaming dreams, young men are seeing visions. Lord, there is no other place I'd rather be.. I want to be here, in the midst of everything You are doing. I want to offer all that I can so You can have Your way..

but as for now, in Your perfect plans.. You've called me back home.. continue to minister to this heart, Jesus. Help me to surrender every part of this re-entry process & the fears regarding uncertainty.. I trust in Your promises. I will worship You at the place You called me to be. 부르신곳에서..


" I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you." Genesis 28:15

Sunday, August 1, 2010

today

speak to me Jesus
I need Your direction..